WELCOMING 2008 !!!

Wow I have not been on here in months...What have I been thinking? Well, I have so much to update everyone on.

Let's start with the bad news first...I have went back to smoking - - - I know, I have already heard it all...'how could you do that' - 'what were you thinking' - ' if I were you' .... I have heard all of them so don't think you are alone. I feel awful, I wish in the back of my mind I would have never told anyone I was going to quit. Because then I would not feel like a huge failure. But anyway, it is to late now. I am going to get a grasp on my life then look at quitting again...I know, another excuse...lol.

On a better note, Isaac is doing great! I am so happy with his progress this year. He is still on the Honor Roll and way ahead of his peers speaking of education. But, we still struggle with behavior. But when have we not. I am taking the control back in my home and he is not understanding what is going on because he can not tell me what to do anymore. He will get better along with me. It is not only him that needs to change it is me also. I know that.

YEAH, we have a kitty...she was a sort of a rescue, abandoned kitty that landed in our lap one day. When we got her she was so tiny and fragile. Now she is meaty and so cute. We love her to death and have named her Squirt. Isaac chose the name for her. He is so good with her. He feeds her and cleans her litter box everyday. He is so good with her. They play together for hours. Since we are not supposed to have pets here we have had to keep her a secret though, but my one friend downstairs knows about her. I am afraid my landlord will find out and tell us to move - I would need to move, I am not giving her up...



Well, we have had Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas since I last wrote...O my I do have alot of catching up to do...Let's do it this way.

HALLOWEEN:
Isaac was a ninja and I took him to the local church for a party and trick or treating after.

THANKSGIVING:
I had to work the day before and the day after - so did not do much...

CHRISTMAS:
Went to Meemaw's house and spent the day with her and Kenny and Elaine, everyone from next door. Isaac had a blast and was very well behaved...I had a great time. I did not want to go to work the next day, but - I have to do what I have to do.

There - that was not so bad. LOL.

I had a roommate for a month or so. That will not be happening again anytime to soon. It was a disaster, but I should have seen it coming. She ended up in jail, moving out and not telling me she was leaving and I had to take her things to her when she left. So, yeah, bad idea. But she is gone and our home is calm and back to normal now, Thank God.

O MY GOD - I ALMOST FORGOT!!!

I got the promotion!!! I am an official employee of CITI now. That was due to alot of prayers from many, many people. I now have 401K, savings, insurance options. All I need to get me and Isaac back on track.

One last thing, starting the new year I have started something new also. I am NOT telling anyone. No one knows but me and Isaac and he is not telling either. After the smoking fiasco I am not letting people down again if it does not work out. But, if it does...then I will tell you all...

Love you all;
Kristine

Progress...

Hello everyone. Just thought I would let you in on a little information.

I have been quit for 1 Month, 2 Weeks, 2 Days, 22 hours and 24 minutes (46 days). I have saved $187.73 by not smoking 938 cigarettes. I have saved 3 Days, 6 hours and 10 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 8/21/2007 9:00 PM

I am really proud of myself. Most of all - you see the little part at the end where it says how many days I have saved off of my life? That is the best part. When I am giving more of me to my kiddo - I love it...He is proud of his mommy too. That makes it all worth it.

Kristine

Our Weekend Vacation...

Well, I finally broke down and went somewhere for a mini vacation...We both deserved it and needed it so bad. Isaac has been doing so well in school and I have been working like a slave in the office overtime every single night, I figured we deserved it. So I saw opportunity to get relaxation and I jumped on it. Meemaw was planning a visit to Gonzales, TX to visit her sick aunt and uncle. She asked if we wanted to go for the ride. I immediately said yes of course. I then started looking up and researching the history behind this town. O my - what history there is. Whenever you have a chance you definitely need to Google it or even go to city site. It is amazing. And being there is even more so. It is about a 5 hour drive and all country. It was so relaxing even Isaac seemed more relaxed lol.

I have included some pictures for you to check out. Hope you enjoy them. Go to my personal MySpace page to see more. I don't know for certain how to put the whole album on here but will put it on MySpace for sure.

Love you guys;
Kristine

I am so Relaxed tonight

It has been almost a week since my last cigarette and I really feel I am done with smoking. I have had a bit or cravings but nothing nearly as bad as I thought it would be like. If I would have known it would be this easy - I would have quit a long time ago, lol.

Well, Isaac had his 1st day in 3rd grade today!!! Yeah! He was so excited, he did really great. He did not get the teacher he wanted but I think he will be just fine. She is an older lady so maybe she won't put up with any crap - lol. He has a very small classroom this year - 16 students in all. That is good at least. Well, I will keep you posted on how this works out through the year.

Well, not alot to update - so I will be signing off now. Just a reminder my birthday is Thursday - I am getting so old...ughh. Thanks to everyone that has already sent birthday wishes my way...

Love you All;
Kristine

FRIENDS SUCK!!! I NEED A REAL MAN...NOT A FRIEND

What the fuck have I done to deserve people walking all over me and treating me like shit?! I take peoples feelings into account in my day to day life. But it seems like the people I surround myself with could give a shit less...
I have one person that is so wishy washy I am convinced she only calls me when she needs something or when she is in trouble. Then I have another one I would give my right arm for and when I need something trivial - they are so much up their companions ass they can do nothing for someone else. You know I am so tired of this bullshit. I miss Amy right now. She is a friend - she could give these people a lesson on how to be a true friend. She is married and still makes time for her true friends as I would for a true friend. But, she is out of town right now and I miss her alot. I have noone to talk to. I made plans with my so-called friend and got a call later Saturday afternoon with her saying she is in Fort Worth! Well, fuck you Kristina - not like you had plans to hang out or something. Then tonight my son is running fever and I was going to take him to the hospital. My "friend" would not help me with $20 to get a prescription because his fucking girlfriend would not let him! I was not trying to make him broke my god - I just did not want to have to go to the bank and take out what little I had before payday. But what the fuck do I know. I thought friends looked out for friends. But, I guess I don't need any. It just goes to show you all I have is my Meemaw and my son. That is proof of it for sure.
I am so mad right now I probably should not even be doing this blog. But screw it why should I keep quiet when noone cares anyway. For those who do care - my sons fever has subsided for now thanks to my Meemaw telling me what to do to break it. If it were not for her we would be in the ER right now. Then my so-called friends would tell me tomorrow "why didn't you tell me".
I will tell you what I need. I need a good man, a good boyfriend. A good boyfriend would have said "Let's take him to the doctor, I will stay with you and make sure he is ok". But, nope don't have that either. I need that though. I am so tired of doing shit alone. Sitting here worrying, crying, feeling alone. I know I have alot to add to a good relationship - but no idea where to find a good guy anymore. I don't go to clubs, bars or party - so how do I socialize enough to meet someone. Not to many guys at the park - and they are probably pedophiles anyway. So, don't want one of them. The guys in my building are all drunks - so don't need them. The guys at my job are like 100 years old - nope not them either...So what do I do? Do I go for the one that likes little kids, drinking to oblivion or about to be stuffed at the taxidermist? Hmmm, the decisions are endless.
OK - well, that is enough of my rants and raves for the moment...Just keep in mind - taking applications for a real man to spend some time with. Apply within.
Love you guys;
Kristine

Time Sure Does Fly

Tonight I did something I have not done in years. I layed down with my son in his bed and just told him stories of when he was a baby. Things he loved to do. Stroking his hair and rubbing his eyebrows, I remembered when he was born and at that moment my Meemaw told me something I have never heard before but will never forget now. "Having children is the hardest pain a person can endure - but the easiest one to forget" I think about that and know it is true. I had Isaac 8 years ago and can not remember any pain of his birth. I remember the hospital, going to labor and the surgery - but no pain. Amazing how one little person can give me so much pain one minute and so much joy for so many long years after the fact. I know for a fact the only reason I am alive right now is because of that little boy. When I found out I was pregnant, I swore to turn it all around and I believe I have. I am stable now and happier than I have been in many years. I can only hope the fears he had before are only distant memories now. I hope I can give him a better life than I had ever dreamed of. My youth sucked that is no secret and I believe if it were not for Isaac - my adulthood would suck too. For this I love him more and more every single day of his life.

Here I am again

Just a quick update about us so far. I have gotten over the whole promotion thing. I realize if it were meant for me to be in that position I would have gotten it. They ended up giving it to an associate that has 20 years of experience. What more could they ask for? At least the best person for the job got it. So I am not sore about it any longer.

Isaac is really doing good on his behavior and listening skills lately. We have both been working on it this week. LOL. Only 2 days into the week, forgot. Oh well, we both have done good for 2 days.

I am working mad overtime at the job and have actually been able to start paying off some more debt. Yeah. Paying bills. I think I am the only one that gets happy about that. One of these days I will be 1/2 way out of debt. Maybe... I will work the overtime as long as they offer it to me. There will be another position coming open soon at the job that I think I will apply for anyway.
Then maybe more overtime will mean more money.

Isaac went to the pool today with his summer camp group. He really likes it there for the most part. Some days are worse than others but when you are 8 and have to wake up at 5 in the morning you can not expect everyday to be great.

Not alot to update - just that we are doing fine and all is well here. I hope it is well for you too.

Love Kristine