Just Amazing...

I am so sick...I have been sick for days now...I started getting a soar throat Friday night and woke up Saturday morning feeling absolutely awful. I tried to enlist the help of my friends, yeah that was a joke. I had my Meemaw that lives over an hour away and my very good friend downstairs, Amy, to help me. Without them - I would probably be dead by now. Amy got my antibiotics and Meemaw called and checked on me via Isaac because I was either asleep or could not talk. If it were not for those two - I don't know what I would do. Isaac went down with Amy and her daughter for awhile and played so I could have some time to sleep soundly. I still don't know what is wrong with me - I am hoping these antibiotics start working though. I will feel better then in 30 minutes I will feel awful. I need to go to the hospital but I don't want to take Isaac up there with me. This is the time I wish I had more people I could call my friends. Someone I could count on to help me. This is kinda why I hate being single...just for a second though. I tried to go to work today...yeah right. By the time I was thinking about leaving and going to the hospital - I get a call from Isaac's daycare. He was throwing food in the lunchroom and being ugly to his teacher so they wanted me to pick him up for the day. OK, here I come...another time I put off me getting help for someone else. At least this time it was for my kid and not someone else. Trust and believe it will be a long time before I extend a hand of helpfulness to anyone right away. I see how many people checked on me...2. Man, I could have sworn I had more than 2 friends...o-well. Life goes on. I am at the point that I don't even care anymore. The one person I wanted to be with, I can't. And the one friend I want, is to far stuck up her mans ass to give a shit about me. Hmmm, I think I need to reevaluate my life and friendships - whatever they may be. I am really in a shitty mood right now and probably have no business blogging, but I find that is when the truth comes out. When you have no cares of the consequences..and right now I don't. I just can't bring myself to argue with anyone right now...so this is my sounding board once again. Maybe I will get to the hospital some day before my funeral. Maybe, maybe not. I might go on Wednesday, I am off work because of the holiday. If I am no better I will got then...I promise myself I will....