Saturday, March 31, 2007

No Surprise.

Wow people never cease to amaze me. Let me start with this first. I am not nor do I think I ever will be sorry I moved to Texas. My son and I are doing 1,000 better than we ever were in Ohio or anywhere else. But man, I am never surprised when someone tries to make everything my fault - that is for sure.

Isaac had his evaluation today and when we got back to the house - his grandmother from his fathers side calls. She first called my cell phone - well I ignored the call because I am not going to use my minutes to talk to her - she can call the house. So, when I ignored the call - sure enough she called the house. She said she was calling because her cellphone went out and she needed my number again - HELLO, she called me. Yeah and not only at home - but on my cellphone too. So would you not also think she has the numbers. So great we are starting the conversation off with a lie. Just what I need. I tell her Isaac went to the doctor and we just got back - so I went to Isaac to give him the phone to talk to her. He really does not want to talk to her and tried to give me the phone back - I told him to talk to her. Then he gets on the phone and she tells him "you don't have to talk to me if you don't want to" so he says "OK and hangs up her"!
He then comes to me and shoves the phone at me and tells me he doesn't want to talk to them anymore. So now what do I do? Do I talk to him and find out why - like I don't already know. Or do I let it go and let him come to me when he wants to talk? Well I chose neither - I sent her an e-mail asking what exactly happened and said I would be waiting for a response from her. I have not heard a thing. Seems like if he hung up on her - why wouldn't she call back and see if he is OK? I guess I have really learned alot about this family over the years. I know people that live far from each other and they still have great relationships - because they call send letters and pictures. But they don't do that with Isaac. I guess they never will. I am not surprised. With them I never get surprised.

OK I feel better about that - now let me get to the good stuff...I have started talking to a guy named Jason. Wow, that's right I am talking to a real life guy. lol. He actually seems really nice - but I never get to enthused until we go out a few times and really get to know each other better. He is an ex-cop {he was hurt in the line of duty} and now he deals in computer tech stuff. We have talked for hours the past few nights and it is going smoothly. We will see I guess. I am hoping for the best - because it is hard for me to really talk to people but it seems easy with him.

Isaac is doing real well, he is truly working on his behavior. I am so proud of him. Hell, I am proud of both of us - we have both been working hard to better our lives together. He signed the book 2 times last week, so that is a huge improvement.

The weather sucks here lately - RAIN RAIN RAIN!!! We finally have sunshine today - but it is all soggy and to wet to go outside anyway, so we are stuck inside.

OK well, I will have to touch back later. Isaac wants to watch TV together.

Love You All;
K&I

Thursday, March 29, 2007

All is Well

I figured I would post a blog because I am bored and just feel like venting a little bit. So here goes. This is probably not going to be really about anything - just a little of everything. So if you get bored reading it I understand. Lol.
Well I took Isaac to the meeting last night - it went well. Last week he only had to sign his book 2 times all week. They were very impressed and so was I. I do not really know what is happening to change his behavior, but whatever it is THANK GOD. I really think these classes are helping both of us though. Things we have tried in the past have not worked - we are willing to try anything at this point.
I am trying to work as much overtime as they will allow me too at work. I am trying to get some bills paid off so I can get caught up. I will get there sooner or later. I have really cut back on alot of things. I guess not going anywhere saves you alot of money - lol.
I still have not received any more child support from Isaac's dad. What a surprise - I guess he figures the last payment of $27 would last a couple of months. Give me a break. He needs to have a big sign in his front yard that reads "DEAD BEAT FATHER" then we'll see what he does. Maybe he will pay some child support - no that will never happen.
Any way - I am going to go for now. I feel better. I need to get dinner done.

Have a great night everyone - more later.

Friday, March 23, 2007

It's Been a Long Time

I wanted to wait to post anything until things calmed down. It seems like I only update this blog with bad news. Man, I live a crazy life looking back in this blog and reading what has happened in the past.

For starters, Isaac has had a great week!!! He only signed his book at school 2 times for the whole week!!! That is awesome. He usually signs 2-3 times a day. So as a treat I took him to the movies and out for ice cream at Sonic. He enjoyed it and we had some time to really talk open and free. He is so smart, yet so sensitive. I forget sometimes he is only 8. But he has these grand thoughts - like something from an adult. I have to step back and remember - "OK, he is only 8" lol.
He has not had any major incidents at the daycare. One time he did not have his seat belt on when the bus was moving. He had a new driver and just trying to push his luck I guess. Well it did not work because she got him to get it on. No problems since then lol.

OK as for me, well, my friend at work {Carol} was on vacation this week. So I ended up with major overtime. That is always nice - I need to get my bills paid before them come-a-calling. I have still not paid for the phone, but they can wait until Tuesday - I hope. I have twice as much work when she is gone because I do not want her coming back to a desk full of stuff to do. So, I hope I did not forget anything. Probably did, but it can wait until Monday.
Then Monday morning we have a HUGE conversion at my office and all the big wigs are going to be there form out of state. So, I guess more overtime is in my future - hopefully. I am really having money woes right now. I need to get Isaac on insurance for health. I have his mental covered, but not health. I sent an application to this company just waiting to see if they will take him or not. They are saying his RAD is very hard to cover because he has had it since birth. Preexisting - they call it. Well, crap most of everything we have now - we had when we were born just did not know it. I am waiting for that info now though. Hope I will hear something soon.

I want to say a quickie prayer for my friend Melissa - she had surgery today. She had a hernia in her stomach. She had major surgery today. We went to visit but only for a second - she is on major meds for pain.

O yeah - tomorrow I get to babysit my friends kids. I can't wait. Isaac will have a friend to play with. And I will have a baby to play with - yeah for me...I really can't wait. I act all tough - but I love kids. I always have. But Isaac is a handful enough for me.

He goes to a reevaluation on the 31st - so I will let you know how it goes.

It is now 1:00am CST - and I need to be up in 6 hours, I need to go to bed now.

Love Always;
K&I

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Have you ever MADE soap?

We had the most interesting science project going on over here yesterday for me and Isaac.

We made bars of soap. Yep - made them.

They had a silent auction at my job because we are raising money for MOD {March of Dimes} and I won 2 different soap making kits. I thought they would be fun to try.

You get to decorate your soap and pour it into molds and everything. Isaac had a good time and the finished product was pretty nice if I must say so myself. He is very proud of his soap - said he is taking Meemaw some next time we visit.

Hoping to take a trip to Waxahachie next weekend to see her. God I miss her. I figure that would be a great chance for Isaac to learn a little about yard work {since we don't have a yard to work on here} lol. He does not mind helping Meemaw. He loves her too.

Weather:
Yesterday it was nice - kinda chilly but still nice. Today is a different story. Very humid and it looks like it is going to rain any second - but they say it is not going too. I don't know - all I know is it is chilly breezy and looks to me like rain.

I had to have the 3rd DSL man come out today and attempt to fix my Internet service. I think he fixed it. He said hen the switched my service for Comcast to Time Warner they never switched out the port for my Internet. Go figure it took 3 people to figure that out. Let's hope for the best I am tired of this darn thing going down every 5 minutes.

OK well that is all today - not alot going on THANK GOD!!!

Touch back later and update some more.

Love Ya;
Kristine and Isaac

Thursday, March 15, 2007

The "Verdict" is in...

I think I am experiencing information overload here but I will try to update everyone.

We have been going through a pretty rough time with behavior issues lately. We went last night and registered Isaac in the "Tough Love" program - it is now called Standupp. They have a bunch of great suggestions that we will be trying at home. I will let you know if they are working or not.

Today he went for a psych evaluation. He was very open and honest about things. He seems to have alot of anger towards his father for not keeping his promises. When the lady asked who he trusted he said "my mom". When she asked if he trusted his father - he said no. He said his father lied to him and he does not trust him now. I guess they will touch base more on that later. She went over the basics and asked ALOT of questions. I watched him from behind the glass so he could talk freely and not know I was listening. He talked about things I never knew he remembered. Things I wish I could forget. So I can only assume how difficult it is for him.

They have concluded he does definitely have ADHD and PTSD (post tramatic stress disorder) they are also going to test him for Bi-Polar and OADD (Oppositional Adult Defiant Disorder). The good thing is OADD is a learned behavior - so there is a chance he may unlearn the negative behavior his shows to adults and people of authority. The bad news is - ADHD, PTSD and Bi-Polar are not learned behaviors and never go away. They can however be controlled with medication.

So I guess in a nutshell - he is doing ok for the moment - but the outcome is still to be seen. They have advised Juvenile Hall would not be a good idea for him. The scare tactic of it would not effect his mental behavior. This comes from a chemical imbalance and may also be hereditary. Since I don't know what type of medical conditions are on my side of the family - I can not make any assumptions.

I have however figured out my kid is a scared little boy that just needs someone to be there when he needs them - and I will do my best to do that everyday.

OK - now I need to go start dinner...

Love:
K & I {Kristine and Isaac}

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

O Thank God

Well, Meemaw is alright. They sent her home. All the tests came back and they could not find anything. Not a stroke - but she is definitely not herself.

I got some very touching e-mails regarding her and I want to Thank Every Single Person that prayed for her. I didn't really believe in the power of prayer - until now. Thank you all.

We go meet with the Stepupp program people tomorrow - so I guess I will wait and see how that goes. I am hoping this is the thing that Isaac and I both need. He will have male influences in his life and they will be able to help him make good choices. I will update everyone on that then. I will actually get to talk to GROWN UPS. My life has revolved around eating, sleeping, breathing and talking to a little boy - how life in the grown up world will feel - lol.

Boy O Boy - did we get some rain!!! More like a down pour! For about a whole 10 or 15 minutes - lol. They say there is more to come but I am not sure. You never know here if it is going to rain until it has already started. We needed the rain though - we are still in drought status.

Well what else...I learned how to make twice baked potatoes tonight. We made pork chops, twice baked potatoes and green peas for dinner. Isaac ate all of his and half of my pork chop. He really liked it. I am so glad when he enjoys what I cook for him.

I had a good day at work today. My friend Carol is going on vacation next week - so I need to get as much caught up this week as possible. I enjoy my job, office, co-workers. But I wish I could catch on a little faster - I feel like when they are teaching me things - it takes me longer to learn them and I am afraid that will hold me back from any promotion. Carol said it won't - but I don't know.

I will update more later on in the week. There is so much happening this week.

Love and Kisses

Monday, March 12, 2007

Say a Prayer Please

I am only posting this blog for one reason and one reason only. I am asking that everyone who does read this help me in saying a small prayer for my Meemaw.

I was at work today and she called to tell me she was not feeling real good and needed to go to the hospital. She called 911 and they have taken her to the ER. When I spoke to her next - she was very groggy. She said they have given her pain medicine and something to relax her.

They did a CT scan and chest X-rays. They think she may have had a small stroke. My Meemaw says things are better than I know they are. I know she is not well. But I love her and I need her a little longer. I know I am being selfish by saying that. But damn it I have never wanted or needed someone to be my family as much as I need her right now. I love her like the mother I have never had in my life. If I lose her anytime soon - I am not ready to take that on. So I ask you Lord, please don't let this be true. Let her only be sick with flu or something else.

Please Lord hold her hand through these times of pain and sleeplessness and bring her home in good health.

Her son is going to the hospital to see her, I can tell he is worried. I heard it in his voice. At least I will have a line of communication at the hospital.

I am not a very religious person - but I have always been told God hears all prayers whether they are said in a church or not. I hope he hears mine today and brings my Meemaw home safe and sound.

Love;
Kristine

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Just Looking Back

Just looking back through some old pictures and thought it would be fun to share some.






Friday, March 09, 2007

OMG - What a Day!

Well, let me start off by saying - OMG! one more time.

This blog may be kinda lengthy because I have alot to get off my chest...lol. So go get something to drink and curl up in front of the computer and scroll down to follow my words...

Well, for starters Isaac almost went to juvenile hall yesterday. Yeah you read it right. He went to school and some kid threw an acorn at him so he decided to pick up a rock and throw it at his head. Well he didn't miss and the kid started bleeding. He went home with a compress on his head. The parents of this kid filed a complaint of "malicious intent" against Isaac. If they stop there - we can work it out at home. If they choose to file an actual assault charge against Isaac he will go in front of a judge and then they will decide if he goes to juvenile hall or not. We will not know that for sure until Monday - the parents have 72 hours maximum to change the complaint to a charge.

Because of this happening I was at the police department with him yesterday evening and was able to get him enrolled in a "STEPUPP" program. Kinda like big brothers and big sisters for children - but instead of using only peers for the children they work with the local police departments. He will have to have a "sleepover" at the jail, a psych evaluation and get a tour of juvenile and what really happens there. Kind of like a scared straight program for children and preteens. I am hoping that he really sees what it is like and that it is no fun.

I have scheduled his evaluation for next week - so I will let you know how that goes. He started back on his medication yesterday, so we will continue that. His medicine is always being tweaked here and there - so sometimes are rougher than others. But it really helps as a mood stabilizer for him. So hopefully we will see some change in his behavior.

I know you don't just pop meds in a kids mouth and get a new kid. I wish it were that easy - lol.
I know it has to do with behavior modification and being consistent. I really try - I really do. But sometimes he just goes on a tangent of his own. I don't know why. I wish I did because I would fix it for him. But now this - I can't fix for him.

He has been grounded and all the toys have been stripped from his room. He is on punishment until further notice. What is crazy is that it was 79 degrees today and he could not even go out and play. I feel bad - but I can't let him know that.

I feel like I failed him as a mother at all. Like it is my fault - I didn't show him right. But I know that is not right. I know there is nothing else I can do right now. I just need someone or something to blame it on. And nothing is fitting right now.

I have had such a taxing week - I need to stop now before I start on another tangent.

Love Always;
Kristine

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

I thought this was Funny enough to POST

STRANGE BUT TRUE STATE LAWS

I have just one question…WHY??????

· In Memphis, Tennessee, a woman is not to drive a car unless a man warns approaching motorists or pedestrians by walking in front of the car that is being driven.

· In Tennessee, it is against the law to drive a car while sleeping.

· In New York, it is against the law for a blind person to drive an automobile.

· In West Virginia, only babies can ride in a baby carriage.

· In Georgia, it is against the law to slap a man on the back or front.

· A barber is not to advertise prices in the State of Georgia.

· In Louisiana, a bill was introduced years ago in the State House of Representatives that fixed a ceiling on haircuts for bald men of 25 cents.

· In Rochester, Michigan, the law is that anyone bathing in public must have the bathing suit inspected by a police officer!

· In Kentucky, it's the law that a person must take a bath once a year.

· In Utah, birds have the right of way on any public highway.

· In Ohio, one must have a license to keep a bear.

· In Tennessee, a law exists which prohibits the sale of bologna (sandwich meat) on Sunday.

· In Virginia, the Code of 1930 has a statute which prohibits corrupt practices or bribery by any person other than political candidates.

· In the State of Kansas, you're not allowed to drive a buffalo through a street.

· In Florida, it is against the law to put livestock on a school bus.

· In New Jersey, cabbage can't be sold on Sunday.

· In Galveston, Texas, it is illegal to have a camel run loose in the street!

· In North Carolina, it is against the law for dogs and cats to fight.

· In Singapore, it is illegal to chew gum.

· In Cleveland, Ohio, it is unlawful to leave chewing gum in public places.

· In Virginia, chickens cannot lay eggs before 8:00 a.m., and must be done before 4:00 p.m.

· In Massachusetts, it is against the law to put tomatoes in clam chowder.

· In Washington State, you can't carry a concealed weapon that is over 6 feet in length.

· In San Francisco, there is an ordinance, which bans the picking up and throwing of used confetti.

· It is against the law in Connecticut for a man to write love letters to a girl whose mother or father has forbidden the relationship.

· In Michigan, married couples must live together or be imprisoned.

· In the state of Colorado, a pet cat, if loose, must have a tail-light!

· In Phoenix, Arizona, you can't walk through a hotel lobby with spurs on.

· In California, a law created in 1925 makes it illegal to wiggle while dancing.

· In Utah, daylight must be visible between dancing couples.

· In Michigan, it is against the law for a lady to lift her skirt more than 6 inches while walking through a mud puddle.

· In North Carolina, it is against the law for a rabbit to race down the street.

· In West Virginia, one can't cook sauerkraut or cabbage due to the odors, and the offence is subject to imprisonment.

· In Missouri, a man must have a permit to shave.

· The law states that more than 3000 sheep cannot be herded down Hollywood Blvd. at any one time

***Never know what to check the laws for anymore...lol

Friday, March 02, 2007

Quick Post

Well, my self pitying is over. I feel better now. Sometimes I wonder if I need Prozac or Zoloft or something my mood swings get so bad. I get so depressed over the littlest things. I get angry over nothing. I am ecstatically happy when I don't need to be.

O well - I regress...

Let me get on with this.

ISAAC:
Wow, rough week for him too. He got into a fight at school on Monday and punched a kid in the eye for pushing him. Went back to school did good on Tuesday, then on Wednesday hit another kid because he called him a weirdo. My little brute - lol. I know, I know - it's not funny. But they were 3rd graders and thought they were bigger than he was, guess not. He went back on Thursday and got 1/2 day in school suspension.
Now we are at Friday and I had to bribe him just to get through the day without punching someone out - lol. I know again - it is not funny, but...

WEATHER:
All I can say is - beautiful. It has been this way all week and now comes the weekend and we are looking for a freeze. Just like Texas...It is 75 one minute and snowing the next - lol

ME:
Well, I had my evaluation at work today and it wasn't bad but it wasn't what I expected either. My boss wants me to take on-line courses to re-up me on the computer system and databases. He said it would not take long to complete them - a week tops. Well, I went on-line to check them out and there are over 65 courses he wants me to take!!! A week - I don't think so. Not with little wee one being mannish at school and the drama I call my home life - lol.

I registered on one of those on-line dating things. And I talked to a guy for a while and we finally met on Thursday. OMG - nothing like the picture and even worse in person. I call it a "blind" date because I wish I were blind - lol. How awful - I am going to go to Hell for talking bad about people. I have been trying to avoid the question of him seeing me again - but I think I just need to be firm and tell him "I don't think so". But being assertive is not one of my strong points. So needless to say - I think on-line dating is not for me. I will die an old unmarried hag.

OK then - that is us in a nutshell this week. I will post more later. I need to get Isaac's pictures on here too. The ones from his birthday party - yeah, the party last month. Punctuality is not a strong point either I guess...lol

Lots of Love to you All